One
day, I woke early in the morning to watch the sunrise. Ah! ...
the beauty of God's creation is beyond description. As I
watched, I praised God for His beautiful work. As I sat there, I
felt the Lord's presence with me. He asked me, "Do you love
me?" I answered, "Of course, God! You are my
Lord and Saviour!"
Then
He asked, "If
you were physically handicapped, would you still love me?"
I
was perplexed. I looked down upon my arms, legs and the rest of
my body and wondered how many things I wouldn't be able to do and
thought about the things that I take for granted. I answered,
"It would be tough Lord, but I would still love You."
Then
the Lord said,
"If you were blind,
would you still love my creation?"
How
could I love something without being able to see it? Then I
thought of all the blind people in the world and how many of them
still loved God and His creation. So I answered, "It's hard
to think of it, but I would still love you."
The
Lord then asked me,
"If
you were deaf, would you still listen to my word?"
How
could I listen to anything being deaf? Then I understood.
Listening to God's Word is not merely using our ears, but our
hearts. I answered, 
"It would be tough, but I would still listen to Your word."
The Lord then asked,
"If
you were mute, would you still praise My Name?"
How
could I praise without a voice? Then it occurred to me, God
wants us to sing from our very hearts and souls. It never
matters what we sound like. And praising God is not always with
a song, but when we are persecuted, we give God praise with our words
of thanks. So I answered, "Though I could not physically
sing, I would still praise Your Name."
And
the Lord asked,
"Do you really love
Me?"
With
courage and a strong conviction, I answered boldly, "Yes
Lord! I love You because You are the one and true God!"
I
thought I had answered well, but God asked,
"Then
why do you sin?"
I
answered, "Because I am only human. I am not perfect."
"Then
why in times of peace do you stray the furthest? Why only in
times of trouble do you pray the earnest?"
I
had no answers ... only tears.
The Lord continued.
"Why
only sing at fellowships and retreats? Why seek Me only in times
of worship? Why ask things so selfishly? Why ask things so
unfaithfully?"
The tears continued to roll down my cheeks.
"Why
are you ashamed of Me? Why are you not spreading the good
news? Why in times of persecution, you cry to others when I
offer My shoulder to cry on? Why make excuses when I give you
opportunities to serve in My Name?"
"You are blessed with life. I made you not to throw this
gift away. I have blessed you with talents to serve Me, but you
continue to turn away. I have revealed My Word to you, but you
do not gain in knowledge. I have spoken to you but your ears
were closed. I have shown My blessings to you, but your eyes
were turned away. I have heard your prayers and I have answered
them all. Do you truly love me?
I
could not answer. How could I? I was embarrassed beyond
belief. I had no excuse. What could I say to this?
When my heart had cried out and the tears had flowed, I said,
"Please forgive me Lord. I am unworthy to be Your
child."
The
Lord answered,
"That
is My Grace, My child."
I
asked, "Then why do you continue to forgive me? Why do You
love me so?"
The
Lord answered,
"
Because you are My creation. You are my child. I will never
abandon you. When you cry, I will have compassion and cry with
you. When you shout with joy, I will laugh with you. When
you are down, I will encourage you. When you fall, I will raise
you up. When you are tired, I will carry you. I will be
with you until the end of days, and I will love you forever."
Never
had I cried so hard before. How could I have been so cold?
How could I have hurt God as I had done? I asked God, "How
much do You love me?"
